Living Without School: I am a grump.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

I am a grump.

A grinch.

My Advent work has been to work on being nice always when speaking to my children.

I am failing . Terribly. Horribly.

I don't know what is wrong with me, but the more I try to speak well, even in trying situations, the more I fail.

I can relate to St Paul, on doing not what I ought but what I don't want .

Horrible morning this morning, getting ready for the pool and Group Learning end of year party.

I have apologized and the day was good but my manner of speaking irks me.

During the final session of the Advent programme tonight, Br. mentioned that God gives us all the graces we need, through the Sacraments and especially in the Eucharist.

Well, duh, I know that but, duh, I don't remember it all the time.

Sigh.

I need Reconciliation - thank heaven tomorrow is the Second Rite of Reconciliation at our church, before Christmas.

I may be failing my Advent work but, hey, I am not failing life. I have the Sacraments and God's grace.

Hope your Advent is blessed and joyous. :-)

8 comments:

Anonymous said...: I can relate. My Latin temper gets the best, or I should say, the worst of me : (; 11:37 pm
Margaret in Minnesota said...: Dearest Leonie, we ALL can relate!

Sending love and blessings your way...; 11:52 pm
Mary G said...: Yes, Leonie, I too can relate. It seems I have a volatile mouth -- and spanking seems to be on the top of the list lately too!

I feel so badly afterwards. But, are they pushing buttons because I'm so remorseful (and cuddly) after or are they pushing buttons cuz they're overloaded with sweets, excitement and changes in scheduling??????

If you say a prayer for me, I'll say one for you......blessings for a warm summer-like Christmas (we might get a White Christmas this year!); 12:19 am
Ladybug Mommy Maria said...: Hugs, Leonie!

We love you!; 3:42 am
Leonie said...: Thanx for the hugs and happy thoughts - it seems others can totally relate. :-)

Confessions tonight, today is another day ( medical tests but no grumpiness, right?); 8:16 am
Anonymous said...: Hey Leonie - I can so relate (except I actually yell :-( )! Now I am trying something else and it might work for others as well, idk. I chose one thing I would not raise my voice about (housework, lack there of and resulting messiness), when I have that conquered, I'll propably have conquered more areas also, I hope! It just helped to be able focus on that one downfall I have so often and it didn't seem like I had to tackle the huge enormous entire problem at one time. So far, it's better. And thank goodness for forgiving children!; 11:31 am
Genevieve said...: My dear, dear, Leonie, I can so relate. And I really appreciate your plan of approach to break its momentum.; 6:59 pm
Leonie said...: Genev ieve - thank you for your understanding. :-)

Sabine - good idea.

reconciliation tonight was a huge help, too. :-); 9:54 pm

Prayer of Consecration of St. Maximilian Kolbe

O Immaculata, Queen of Heaven and earth, refuge of sinners and our most loving Mother, God has willed to entrust the entire order of mercy to thee. I, N___, a repentant sinner, cast myself at thy feet humbly imploring thee to take me with all that I am and have, wholly to thyself as thy possession and property. Please make of me, of all my powers of soul and body, of my whole life, death and eternity, whatever most pleases thee. If it pleases thee, use all that I am and have without reserve, wholly to accomplish what was said of thee: "She will crush your head," and, "Thou alone have destroyed all heresies in the whole world."

Let me be a fit instrument in thine Immaculate and merciful hands for introducing and increasing the maximum in all the many strayed and indifferent souls, and thus help extend as far as possible the blessed Kingdom of the most Sacred Heart of Jesus. For wherever thou enters, one obtains the grace of conversion and growth in holiness, since it is through thy hands that all graces come to us from the most Sacred Heart of Jesus.

V. Allow me to praise thee O Sacred Virgin.
R. Give me strength against thy enemies.

Prayer of St Bonaventure

Pierce, O most Sweet Lord Jesus, my inmost soul with the most joyous and healthful wound of Thy love, with true, serene, and most holy apostolic charity, that my soul may ever languish and melt with love and longing for Thee, that it may yearn for Thee and faint for Thy courts, and long to be dissolved and to be with Thee.Grant that my soul may hunger after Thee, the bread of angels, the refreshment of holy souls, our daily and supersubstantial bread, having all sweetness and savor and every delight of taste; let my heart ever hunger after and feed upon Thee, upon whom the angels desire to look, and may my inmost soul be filled with the sweetness of Thy savor; may it ever thirst after Thee, the fountain of life, the fountain of wisdom and knowledge, the fountain of eternal light, the torrent of pleasure, the richness of the house of God.May it ever compass Thee, seek Thee, find Thee, run to Thee, attain Thee, meditate upon Thee, speak of Thee, and do all things to the praise and glory of Thy name, with humility and discretion, with love and delight, with ease and affection, and with perseverance unto the end.May Thou alone be ever my hope, my entire assurance, my riches, my delight, my pleasure, my joy, my rest and tranquility, my peace, my sweetness, my fragrance, my sweet savor, my food, my refreshment, my refuge, my help, my wisdom, my portion, my possession and my treasure, in whom may my mind and my heart be fixed and firmly rooted immovably henceforth and for ever. Amen.