You know, maybe you can beat some of your childhood fears.
Our thirtieth wedding anniversary. My (fiftieth) birthday. Great friends spent time with us, shared gifts, came to our party, our dinner, Mass. A Mass with a special blessing. (Thank you, Fr!).
I didn't want to do anything special to celebrate these milestones. I remembered my past, being told by those I love, those in my family, that I am shallow, superficial, no one really likes me or would want to be friends with me.
Rationally, logically, you know it can't all be true. Rationally, logically, you put these comments away and just live. But these little comments,these fears, bubble up during milestone events.
So, this is what I have been working through lately. I didn't want a party ..no one would come! Chatting online with an old friend on Facebook, I was encouraged to have a party. She told me she would come from interstate, from Perth, so at least I'd have her here, her daughters, and my dh and my kids.
And so we celebrated. My friend from Perth came. Some friars, special friends, came. And so did many , many of my super Sydney friends.
So, maybe you ( I) can overcome childhood issues.
Thank you, guys!