Currently working on...a number of things. A routine for our homeschool. Working on my Kumon centre. And working on my weight.
A person close to me thinks I should lose weight. They are probably right. I have been thinking about their comment the last two weeks or so, and hating my recent pics.
Yes, I am happy that I lost 38kg over a four/five year period. Yes, I am happy that I am average BMI, I am no longer obese, I have been maintaining my weight for a year.
But, as this person pointed out, and as pics show, I am still not slim. I am resting on my laurels, just because I am so glad to be having a pretty normal relationship with food.
Says she, eating a chocolate Easter Bunny while planning a diet!
So, do I want to lose weight?
Yes and No.
Yes, who wouldn't want to be slimmer, to cringe less at photos?
No, because I have a history of eating disorders ( overeating or making myself throw up as a way of dealing with emotions). I don 't want to go there again. To be obsessed.
And I am scared that I won't be able to lose the weight. I'll feel like a failure.
So, where has my thinking taken me?
I will aim to watch portions, I already have the workout part down pat. Now, for me, weight loss will be primarily about my eating.
I'd like to lose another 10 kg. For now.
I am a slow loser. So no time goal.
Just deciding to plod along, allow for small victories and small defeats and work on eventually losing those 10 kg. On being healthier, fitter, slimmer.
I have started a diet journal again, an occasional journal to help with thoughts and ideas and motivation.
Food is like sex: when you abstain, even the worst stuff begins to look good. ~Beth McCollister
Blessed are those who hunger and thirst, for they are sticking to their diets. ~Author Unknown
Dieters live life in the fasting lane. ~Author Unknown
In the Middle Ages, they had guillotines, stretch racks, whips and cahins. Nowadays, we have a much more effective torture device called the bathroom scale. ~Stephen Phillips
Not very inspiring quotes, but funny anyway!