Contemplation. Thinking. Thoughtful observation. Full or deep consideration.
To what am I giving my full or deep consideration?
How I mother.
Something happened yesterday that made me cross. Made me seethe. Made me feel like crying.
It is okay. I got over it. I prayed. I also went to Confession over my not-very-nice-attitude.
And I wonder. Does my mothering by example work? I have been a strong believer in the maxim that if I do what is right, others will follow. That if I love what the kids love, spend time with them, treat them with respect, then they will come to love what I love ( or at least understand why I do the things I do..)....To paraphrase St John Bosco.
Or is example not enough?
The trouble is, of course, that I am not always a good example. I rarely lose my cool but when I do, boy, I am not very pleasant. And the kids can always remember my times of losing-my-cool and can re-tell them. As can I.
Yesterday, I didn't say a word. Woo hoo! Am so pleased with myself! I took dh out for lunch to make up for my bad thoughts and to make myself happy - I like snatching some time alone with dh! I did housework and worked off tension. Everyone seemed happy and oblivious to my thoughts. Good.
So, perhaps the issue is not that being a good example to my kids is not enough but that I need to work on always consistently being a good example and on accepting our differences.
Hey, I have to remember that I am the only female in a house of males and the males just seem to see things differently than I!