Living Without School: I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do

Monday, September 15, 2008

I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do

A paraphrase of St Paul.

Feeling blah today about my behaviour. My mouth that runs away from me.

So, what do I do?

Well, go to mass this morning, for Our Lady of Sorrows.

That is a good thing.

And then while doing work and home and homeschool things, I eat. I snack. Too much.

I turn to food when sad or upset.

Sick, huh?

Our Lady of Sorrows, pray for us.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...: Praying for you, Leonie.
And I kind of think the eating thing when sad or unsettled is normal.

We did an aweful lot of eating during Gustav and Ike. :); 11:14 pm
Greg said...: Don't forget you talked to me too. That surely makes any day a blessed one :)
Just came back from Mass for Our Lady of Sorrows myself. Dinner (vegetable soup) heating up now.
I can also sympathise with the snacking. I remember one day last year hearing I didn't get the job I wanted the first thing I did was walk down to the deli and buy a big vanilla slice!
Hope tomorrow is better.; 4:24 am
Leonie said...: Ah, fellow comfort eaters...; 7:18 am
Chris said...: This comment has been removed by the author.; 5:54 pm
Chris said...: Mmmmm Greg said vanilla slice. No! No! No!
Unfortunately that which I would not that would I do. We run that race don't we. “Let us run with endurance the race that is set before us (Hebrews 12:1).”We can cheer each other along that race with words of encouragement and prayer.; 5:56 pm

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